let me be the one who calls you baby all the timee. <3

that's all i'm asking of him. and right now, as i'm listen to "Smother Me" i think. so i wrote this blogg to share those thoughts. and yes, these thoughts are all about him. <3

i love zack more than anything. he i the most amazing guy i've ever known. i don't care what anyone says about him. i don't care what you think about him. he is the best guy in the world and i would never trade him for anything. not even if i got everything i've ever wanted. i'd still keep him. because he's all i'll ever need. all i need is the guy i've been looking for since forever. i love him so much.

when we're making out in the limo on the way to prom i'll love him.

when he's on one knee asking me to marry him, i'll love him even more.

when he's looking at me crying at the atler as i  read my vows on our wedding  day, i'll love him even more.

while we shove cake into each others faces, i'l going to love him more.

when we have out first dance as husband and wife, ill love him so much i might cry. <3

when i tell him that we're going to have a baby i'll love him even more.

when we're in the hospital having it, i'll love him even more.

when we're watching then grow up, i'll love him even more.

when we're old and sitting in our chairs on our front porch watching a sunset, ill love him even more.

when he's crying over my grave, i'll be dead, but i'll love him the most i've ever loved him. [or if it's me crying, i'll love him even more.]

there is no one i  love more in the world. there is no one i'd rather do those things with.  it's just him. either i'm with him or i'm alone. he is to special. he means to much to me to let him leave. if he does, which i know he wouldn't, i'm going to say:

 ''and i'm telling you, i'm not going. you're the best man i've ever known. there's no way i could ever go. no. no there's no way, no no no no way i'm living with out you. i'm staying. and you, you're gonna love me.''

i'm not living with out him. if i have to. i live in misery.

i love him.

and he loves me.

and i'm gonna love him forever no matter what you say.

he's mine. if you're not in the relationship, stay out of it. i don't care about what you think.

he's mine.

and i'm his.

for as long as he wants me.

but i hope he knows, i will want him forever.

no matter what happens.

i'm staying.

he's my everything.

and he always will be. <3

A Note To Him

i love you so much. i know you hear that from me a lot but that's becasue it's more than true. i don't even just love you. it's something bigger than even i know. i love you more every second. i love everything about you. you're everything i've been looking for and more. you've tought me so much probably more than you even know. you've made me feel like a better person. you make me feel like i can do anything i want. when it's just me and you i feel like there is no one else in the world and like there are no rules. you make me feel good about myself. i never thought i was "pretty" or anything. i was always the one singled out as the "tall, chubbie, white girl". i've been her since kindergarten and i hated her. i was her until seventh grade. then i became someone worse. i ws known as the slutty girl white i hated. when i realized that some boys spread that rumor i started to think. and then i eighth grade i had the worse experince ever. it hurt me really bad and i never thought i'd trust another boy again. i thought they're all horrible people. and then i met you and you made me realized that not all guys are the same. some are actually nice, trusting, caring, and all that stuff. some guys care about how people feel, like you. for the first time, i feel like i can love someone and have it be okay. you have no idea how many time i've asked someone out and got turned down. i've been turned how since  pre-school. now that i'm finally with someone how i can love and have them love me back, i feel like i finally have someone. i have friends but none that i can really talk to and i have family but, believe me, they won't care about my feelings. they don't really care. but you care about me. i'm tired of people saying stuff to me about you like you don't love me or whatever. they're just jealous. and they don't know you. you are different than everybody else. you're better. everything you do and everything about you is amazing. your voice is in my head all the time and you give the best hugs ever. i think that there is no one is the wolrd i want to be with more than you. everytime i see you i just wanna hug you and never let go. everything reminds me of you. even the randomest thing can somehow remind me of you. i love you so much. i can't even discribe how much. it's just so much. it's and amount bigger than anything. i've heard people say that there is no such thing as the perfect person. i use to believe it but now i just look at them and say, "yes there is. and i found him." but now that i think about it, i was wrong. because you aren't perfect. you're more than perfect

no amount in the world

Ok. Start With The Amount Of People In The World.

Now, Add The Dead Ones.

Now, Add The Amount Of Teeth In The World.

Now, Add The About Of Hair In The World In Pieces.

Add The Weight Of Everyone In The World.

Add The Number of Every Grain Of Sand On Every Beach Times 10.

Add The Amount Of Micro-Seconds That Me, You, and Your Best Friend Breath Every Year.

Add The Number Of Stars In The Universe Times A Trillion

Now Add A Trillion Plus One.

Now Add Infinity.

Add One.

Times That By It's Self.

I Could Go On ALL DAY.

You'll Never Get The Amount That I Love Zack.

That's How Much I Love Him.

There Isn't A Number.

And It's No Zero or Negative.

It's Just To Much.

But You Can't Love Someone To Much.

So When He Says He Loves Me More...

He Had NO Idea.

But I Still Believe Him. <333